Hi. Recently I started seeing this Capricorn Guy. Allow me to brief you on our history. I met him last year thru my cousin. It was work related. So here I am talking to him about work and the projects needing to be done. I didn't see him as yet... we just spoke over the phone. Now this year, I got my chance to see him. Beautiful. He is a hndsome gut and I just LOVE how he carried himself. I always saw that great ambition in him and this attraccted me to him very much. So anyhoos, now recently while dealing with him (on a business level) I was going thru my own emotional drama. I was ending a 8 year back and forth relationship with an ex. So my Capi came right smack in the middle of that. I was low and was appreciative of the attention that this Capi was giving me. Soon enough I gravitated to that. He's Beautiful I tell you. His body is lean and slender and he is smart and ambitious. He is exactly how I would want my man. I'm a tall girl and he is taller than me... even with heels! Perfect, just perfect. Now here's the problem. He is a ladies man. He looks good and he knows it. When we finally got together- he started handling me as if I was already his wife! When I spoke to him on this... he said, "Now you know the deal. Let's Go." His game playing is a little too much for me. His humor (although funny) is kind of dark. He plays around with me like... like... remember when you were in elementary school and that boy liked you? But before he told you this.. he would stupid stuff like tell dry jokes or push you around or something? Well... this is my Capi. I told him my nerves can't take it. He told me to live life and stop being so whining. Live A little. When we are together- he looks at other woman. Blantly. When I ask him what the hell is up with that he said= "what difference does it make if I look at other woman? My heart is with you. What you want? For me to look at men?" So he continues... irking me and he knows it. Then he gets moody sometimes. I try to make him happy- going for drives, taking walks in the park... he always complain about it but then ends up being happy once we did it. He plays around and dances and act very silly (and I LOVE ALL OF THAT). And funny enough... he does NOT act this way around other people. He is quite, reserve and very brooding. I am surpised and pleased whenever he smiles or laugh! He thanks me for bringing out the laughter in him. For he says he doesn;t do it that often. But it is temparment. He gets angry real quick. He admits to his anger and says that he's been hurt and lied to and shit. I've explained that he is not the only one- so he mustn't behave like Dr. Jekell & Mr Hyde. He got upset with that comment. What the hell was so wrong with that comment? I don't even curse at him. I give him that respect. Although he acts like a high schooler and it bugs the hell out of me at times... I try to remain calm and understanding. I know he likes me. Or does he? He said point blank that he has a bevy of women that he can run with. But he chooses to get to know me. He likes my style and everythng about me... he wants to grow with me. He wants to Grow me. "I gots you." he says. You need a man in the business that you are in (entertainment) and I am that solider for you. So get your head out your ass stop thinking logically anad start thinking with your heart. oh yeah... the way he speaks to much isn't really quite romantic. "Yo'! I like you so get a grip! I'm here aren't I? Stop the bellowing and let's go." and then he would slap my but- hard. Seriously- sometimes I wonder if he is using the pimp to hoe tactics with me. He handles me so, SOOOO aggressively at times and then turn around and be kind. Isn't that a form of abuse? Manipulation?In the short time I've been with him (a month) all of this has happened. He's spent a little under a week at my home. It was nice while he was here (in spite of his up and down ways) and I miss him. He's back down south now at his home and I am in NY. We speak ever day since he left.
OH! Another thing. He gets up set because he says that I go back and forth. One minute I say that I want to be with him and I will function along the wife role that he has placed on me. Then the next minute I say for us to take it slow and what is the rush. This infuriates him. He says that I am giving him a ff--- headache (yeah he curses at me) and that I need to get a grip. I don't Have a GRIP because how can I say that I am wife after a MONTH of seeing and talking to each other? Is he dangling the marriage stuff cause he knows that this is what I (all women) would eventually want? This is what perplexes me and gets me all confused.
With his erractic rude behavior... how can I say that he likes me? Let alone love me? Am I a toy to him or what? A recent project? How can you care for someone and be so rude? I don't want to be a joke in this man's life.
I show him nuff love and he darts spitballs at me. Later thanking me for being me and how he will make me happy. Just shut the f-- up and watch.
As a pisces... I enjoy giving love. But I don't know if I should stick it out and try to give it to him. His arrogance and temperment is getting to me. He heavily goes by What's Good For The Goose isn't always Good for the Gander.
I do see the beautiful potential in him. Or is this my wishful thinking? Help.