Every time i try to get into a relationship with a guy i get scared and mess things up on purpose, because im scared im going to end up like my mother. is there something wrong w/ me?
Yes, there is something wrong with you and you just pointed it out. You have the model of your mother before your eyes all the time and you believe you'll be like her. When we believe in something, we make it happen. So if you believe you'll fail, you'll work towards that failure. You surely need to see a psychologist/counselor to be able to deal with your fear of relationship failure.