I don't have money for a psychiatrist, and don't trust them anyways.
Here are three sites where you can get help. The people who man the phones and web sites are there to listen, not to judge. They can help you find someone you trust to talk to as long as you take the first step ~ you have only to ask.
Meanwhile, if you are in immediate danger of harming yourself or you have made another attempt, you can always call 911 or go to the nearest hospital emergency room. Don't let today's pain be the last thing you ever experience. Good luck.