When we lost our only child when she was 28, 3 months before her 29th birthday. She was in a slip & fall accident. Her specialist never took her head injury seriously. Almost 4 months later she passed away. I can't function. I'm a zombie. My brain no longer functions properly. Everything in my life is in termoil. I'm now being mentally abused by my husband of 32+ years, I can't do anything but pray, read the Bible, and take care of cats. When my business was successful, our relationship was fine. Now since our daughter's passing, he accuses me of stealing ;his money. I'm expected to take care of everything. Being an artist I've always been independent, very giving, loved my family, my daughter was #1 in my life. If it wasn't for the LORD, I would of already ended this pain. She's been gone for over a year, it's getting worse, not better. My husband's not making my situation better. He knows since I can't function, I don't have money to leave. He has me 1700 miles from my family. I need help, anti depressants don't work for me. I've started having panic attacks, those are aweful! I'm not getting better after my loss. My husband feels he puts in his hours at work as soon as he's in the door, it's beer, Grand Marnier, and hydrocodone and now into my Xanax. I'm stuck, I have nobody in this place, no family. Hubby knows this, he just mentally abuses me more, now with the accusation of me stealing his money, that hurts me to the core. I'm to the point, I don't care, I have nothing left to live for! How can I get over these feelings?