Sammie, considering all the people who've responded to your various posts with help comments and suggestions how can you even ask such a question? You can't think you've got anything but friends here, but friendship is a two way street. Friends tell each other the truth so it will help if you think in those terms.
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Sammie, here is a link to an organization that can help you through some of these problems you're experiencing.
I really hope you'll check into it.
www.aa.org
Other people asked questions on similar topics, check out the answers they received:
Other people asked questions on various topics, and are still waiting for answer. Would be great if you can take a sec and answer them