I left my husband of 1.5 years, when he continued to cheat on me, lie, abandon me...among other things, it was hard to leave, because he was the love of my life. I packed up and moved to another state. I filed for divorce and briefly even dated someone. I did not see him in 6 months, changed my phone number. He emailed me constantly and after months of appologizing I finally gave in. My husband (who had also been dating again) wanted to see me. When we saw eachother he promised me that this time would be different, and he was sorry. I believed him because I never stopped loving him, no matter how hard I tried to move on I can not stop loving him. He asked me if I had been with someone else during our seperation, and I was honest, I told him that I indeed had 1 boyfriend. My husband told me that he didn't care, but that he only blames his own actions for me to try to move on with my life. He told me that he loves me, and wants me back in his life (and my daughter, his step daughter) we spend a beautiful weekend together, making plans on how we were going to reconcile and start over, we had sex, and he told me that he wanted to stay married and have a child(which we worked on
after a few days I did not hear from him...then he called me and told me that he can not get over the fact that I had sexually been with another man.
We argued about it, I told him that I only tried to move on with my life the best way I knew how, because he treated me so badly and constantly cheated on me. I was willing to forgive him...but he is throwing it in my face.
I am confused, he tries for 6 months to win me back and then
he just throws me away again. He said that he will never stop loving me but that the thought of me and another man will always haunt him. I told him that the day before we met and had sex again, so he had a choice as to wheather to see me or not, I was just trying to be honest with him. Why did he tell me that he didnt care at first ? I am so cunfused. Should I just let it go and move on ? I do love him alot (even though he has hurt me alot in the past) we would have never been seperated if he had never done those things in the past. And when he was dating his girlfriend (who he denies having had sex with) he was all for the divorce...I am so confused. how can I go on from this ? I cant stop thinking about him, :(