Do I have a disorder? I have felt there is something wrong with me for a long time now I will list some of the things I feel are off about me. I have a high opinion of myself I feel I am smarter and ...
I would venture a tentaive disgnosis of either psychopathy or, more likely, sociopathy. Yes, at one time I was a therapist. You've heard terrible things about these conditions. murderers, serial killers yadda yadda. That's true, most people of that sort are psycho or sociopaths. But there's a LOT of people who suffer one or the other condition and never hurt anyone but themselves in their life. If you get some therapy, you will be able, with some effort, to adjust your thinking so that you learn to have feelings for others, to have a healthy ego rather than egotism. Not so serious as it may sound, it is treatable if you make the effort. And the fact that you're concerned enough to even ask show that you are willing to learn and change.
Bonehead answered,"Yes, at one time I was a therapist".