I'M not religious I never really was, I couldn't help you. But a lot of atheists are, most of them had enough sense to leave these racist protestant churchs and know more about christianity than most christians do.
But I'M not trying to convert you to atheism thats just one of your options, you could go to an atheist church to get answers, but you could also get answers from the catholic faith, they don't push it on others in order to be able to believe in it them selves like the protestants do. Or you could go to a black church, their more of a community thats a support system. But if you try to get answers through the protestant faith, most the time all your going to learn is ignorance.